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Date:      Sat, 26 Sep 1998 22:25:24 EDT
From: "Liviu Dudas" <ldudas@pcnet.pcnet.ro>
To: "Ben Simen-Falvy" <ben@uniserve.com>
Subject:   Re: Hello Ben

Dear Ben,

You are right when saying about that I don't know what to say.
First of all because the Shaman was part of you and you feel now alone
(even it isn't so), but now Shaman is in God hands, so you have to
be happy and wait for the moment when you'll meet her again.

To say only "oh sorry" or other things like this sounds too official
and hypocrit for me, and I am not this kind. Because I understand
you and in these moment the words are useless, they can't really
express our feelings.

Only God knows what is good for us. And you know that "the wisdom
of people is madness in front of God". Don't be sorry, be happy,
Shaman is well now, escaping from this world of pain and sufference.
(don't you see what is everywhere around us, wars, diseases, hunger etc.)

I do rememeber a little story (a poetry from a south american poet, I
don't remember the name, and the verses are not accurate):

	I am old now and when I see my life days 
	I see myself like walking on a seashore 
	whith God beside me.

	And I am relying on Him 
	and talking to Him all the time.

	And for every day in my life 
	It is a pair of steps on the sand,
	One of Him, one of mine.

	But when I am looking more attentive
	to the row of steps, 
	I see that are portions 
	with only one row of steps.

	And those days where those when
	I was bad, when I was sad, 
	When I was selfish or not listening,
	the worst days of my life...

	And I am saying to Him:
	Look Father, you weren't near me then,
	You left me alone!.

	And He answer gently:
	No, son, those days where the days
	When I carried you on my arms."


You are right saying that only time heals us. In fact not time, but God.
We see all this life and see all things that seem unfair to us, all bad
things, all pain. But who knows? We are only dust in this Universe.
"Unrevealed are the paths of God".

Do you think that Liza is not happy now? She returned to her ancestors.
She is a Shaman, she returned to total Life. You'll meet her in the future.
You are so lucky you have a Shaman as your half!!! 

Thank you very much for the film. 
We use here the PAL TV and colour encoding system. 
Otherwise I won't be able to read the tape (I dont have a VCR anyway).
If you send the film maybe the language of ancestors is recorded too.
I want to hear it.

I wanted so much to meet American Natives. I am convinced that are
Shamans there and I want to meet some of them. Maybe one of them would
become my teacher as this is the only thing I need in this moment.
This is the only reason I want to go Canada or States. To look for
true sorcerers.

I would want to help you Ben, with what I could.
I am praying for you and your Shaman.
God bless you and your family.

The Life is continuous. 
Birth and death are only gates.
The one who sees beyond these is a seer.
The Shaman was a seer.
I think that now she wants you to see this for yourself. 

Bye.

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